I am not sure what to do right now. Mom is not doing to well right now and I am scared that something bad is going to happen and I know that there isn't nothing that I can do aabout it except sitting back and watching it on the telvision screen as it plays out like so horror movie.  She just got off the phone with me and told me that she is going to the hospital to get surgry on her cateric in her eye and not to worry about it.  However, I can't help pbut to worry when she goes into the hospital.


My ex decided to call me and ask me if we could hangout sometime. I told him that it is okay with me.  He is going to come up here on Tuesday after work.  I do not know if this is a good idea or not, but well see.  I just want to get back to being on a friend to friend basses, because this hating each other is killing me.  We used to be friends prior to dating and I just want to be friends again. 

AND FIANLLY THE GOOD NEWS...

So I went and saw Merry Wives of Winsor yesterday. Marshall's Theatre Department was putting it on and it was awesome. I would recommend it to anyone to go see it while you still have time.

"At my heel!"  Dr. Caius 

heehee. You just had to see it to get it. LOL!

Each person did a great job with there character, however, Dr. Caius and Mr. Ford were my favorite ones.

Spiders!

Spiders, Spiders everywhere. There are so many I cannot count. 
Where did they come from? No one knows and
 everyone is trying to guess. 

I cannot tell them! There is no-way that they would understand. 
It was a mistake-Yes, a mistake. 
People that do not see things like us kids do. 

My mother would cry...
My dad would disown...,me...
Please if you know-or if you think you know how to fix this plan 
PLEASE!, I beg of you please, come and tell me so that I can try to fix this...,mess

It was for Science that's all...
i do not know how something so innocent...
could go sooo wrong!

I have tried hidding. 
I have tried fighting. 
The issue I find myself in is that I am scared of them so. 
There everywhere 
No land place is free. 

I have tried hidding:
my bedroom
under the bed
the closet
and even in the tub!

I have tried hidding 
in my mom's bed
in her cloest 
and in her shower!

Nothing is going to make them go away. 
Trust me i have tried. 
I am huddled in the corner of my bathroom 
behind the closed and looked door. 
I am hidding and hopefull they wont find me. 

These spiders are everywhere!
This just can be true!
They are so huge and have such small eyes.
There just can't be real!
i scramble from my corner and run to the sink...
I through up the handle and watch for water to come froth
However, nothing comes out...I hear a putt and grunt
Then what to my eyes do I see?
Spiders come forth pouring into my hands...
AHHH!!!! NO IT CAN"T BE!

Now there is no place safe. 
They are flooding into my safe haven.
I run back to my corner and cuddle and pray that none of them come near
They pile up higher and higher
getting closer and closer to me. 

They from a far I hear a voice
Its soft and kind
Calling me back to them 
Slowly I draw myself up and open my closed eyes
There is my mom 
Standing there beside me
telling me it will be okay
That there is nothing to be scared of. 

I looked around me and I am uterly amazed
The spiders...all those spiders...
They are gone! 

I do not know where they went!
So I beg of you where ever you be
watch out! 
They may be coming for you too!

I cannot sleep anymore and I hope that one day soon they will just come out 
and take my away so that I can finally sleep...



So that's it. please tell me what you think. 

Thanks!

So, I was watching Can You Duet on TV last night, becuase I was going through the channels and saw that it was coming on. I must say that I hate it more than I do American Idol and thats bad. If you get to watch it I reccomend that you don't. It is a waste of time and least it was to me cause I do not like that kind of stuff. Well, got to get back to school work. Peace!

So, over the last few days I have heard some distribing news about Cabell County Schools. There was rumored that the Board of Education (BoE) was going to take music and the fine arts in general out of schools. This can not happen. THere are two many people who rely on that as a means of expression and if that is taken from the school then the rate of displanary(ms?) would go up. However, as of yesterday, when I went to the the canidates rally each one that was there stated that they do not and will not vote for music to be taken out of the schools. So, we Fine Arts people are making sure that they hold true to that. Our college is a school of Fine Arts and if the Fine Arts are taken out of the schools then what are we to do. The only choice we would have is to convert to another section and that is not a choice. We Are A School of Fine Arts and there will be no stoping that.

The main thing that I have lost is the ability to express myself. As I look back on life, becuase of something that Jenna told us is meeting yesterday, I realized that I have started to close up from the world. Some of this is becuase I sometimes feel like I do not belong or fell like when I am around people that I dhouldn't be there. However, I have now come to face the facts that I will try to speak up more towards people starting tomorrow. Right now I need to get off the cliff of thinking that everyone out there is going to hate me for my opinions. So, from then on I am going to be doing what I think I should and I apologize if I hurt anyone in the process of trying to find myself. Thoughout this journey I hope that I can once again find myself and bring me back to where I used to be.